IT BLOWS MY MIND WHEN I HEAR OF PEOPLE WHO HAVE LIVED IN ONE PLACE THEIR WHOLE LIFE. I KNOW A LADY IN GLENMORA WHO IS 53 YEARS OLD AND HAS NEVER LIVED ANYWHERE ELSE BUT ON THE EXACT SAME PIECE OF LAND. THAT TRULY AMAZES ME! WHILE I WAS GROWING UP, IT WAS LIKE THAT. I CAN STILL REMEMBER EXACTLY WHERE CERTAIN THINGS WERE IN THE HOUSE WHERE I GREW UP.
BUT.............
ONCE I DID "GROW UP", THINGS GOT A LITTLE HECTIC. NO, THINGS GOT REAL HECTIC. I WONT BORE YOU WITH THE DETAILS, BUT AS MY LIFE GOT MORE AND MORE OUT OF CONTROL, I BOUNCED AROUND FROM PILLAR TO POST. AND ALOT OF THE TIME, I DRUG MY KIDS ALONG WITH ME. I BECAME AN EXPERT MOVER. MY POOR DADDY KEPT HIS UTILITY TRAILER HANDY FOR WHEN I DECIDED TO MOVE AGAIN. HE BECAME AN EXPERT AT LOADING IT UP AND MOVING IT OUT.
AS THE KIDS GREW OLDER AND I GOT WILDER, THANK GOD MY PARENTS STEPPED IN AND SAID ENOUGH WAS ENOUGH. DETAILS ARE NOT IMPORTANT, THATS NOT WHAT THIS IS ABOUT, BUT, I REALLY LOST CONTROL THEN. I RIPPED AND I RAN AND I DID EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED TO DO. I PROMISE YOU NOTHING GOOD CAME OUT OF IT. YOU MIGHT THINK I AM LYING, BUT MY RUNNING ACTUALLY LED ME BACK AND FORTH ACROSS THE MEXICAN BORDER THREE TIMES IN ONE DAY. IT LED ME TO THE NEVADA DESERT, WHERE I FINALLY STARTED TO REALIZE EXACTLY HOW ALONE I WAS.
MY RUNNING LED ME TO THE VIRGIN ISLANDS TWICE. I THOUGHT THAT SURELY THATS WHERE I NEEDED TO BE. AFTER ALL, ISNT THAT SUPPOSED TO BE PARADISE? I GOTTA ADMIT, IT WAS BEAUTIFUL, BUT ITS HIDEOUS WHEN YOU FEEL ALL ALONE.
NO MATTER WHERE I WENT, NO MATTER WHAT I DID, I STILL FELT EMPTY AND ALONE. I TRIED TO BE HAPPY. NO ONE KNEW WHAT WENT ON BEHIND MY SMILING FACE. I HATED MY LIFE. I FELT USELESS. I FELT LIKE A WASTE TO MY FAMILY. I COULDNT RUN FAR ENOUGH. I COULD NOT HIDE.
I CANNOT FIND WORDS TO TELL YOU HOW IT FELT TO FINALLY COME HOME. NOTHING THAT I HAVE SEEN ANYWHERE SEEMS AS BEAUTIFUL TO ME AS THIS PLACE. I FINALLY DECIDED TO STOP RUNNING. I REALIZED THAT I TAKE ME WITH ME NO MATTER WHERE I GO. I AM COMPLETELY SATISFIED TO SIT HERE AT HOME AND ENJOY THE LOVE OF MY FAMILY AND THE PEACE OF MY LIFE.
I ESPECIALLY TREASURE THE LOVE OF THE LORD. I AM SO GRATEFUL THAT HE WAITED PATIENTLY FOR ME TO REALIZE THAT HE WAS WHAT WAS MISSING IN MY LIFE. THROUGH IT ALL, HE WAS THERE. I SEE THAT NOW. I WAS NEVER ALONE. WORDS CANNOT TELL YOU HOW GRATEFUL I AM TODAY FOR HIS FORGIVENESS, HIS GRACE, HIS MERCY AND HIS LOVE.
BUT.............
ONCE I DID "GROW UP", THINGS GOT A LITTLE HECTIC. NO, THINGS GOT REAL HECTIC. I WONT BORE YOU WITH THE DETAILS, BUT AS MY LIFE GOT MORE AND MORE OUT OF CONTROL, I BOUNCED AROUND FROM PILLAR TO POST. AND ALOT OF THE TIME, I DRUG MY KIDS ALONG WITH ME. I BECAME AN EXPERT MOVER. MY POOR DADDY KEPT HIS UTILITY TRAILER HANDY FOR WHEN I DECIDED TO MOVE AGAIN. HE BECAME AN EXPERT AT LOADING IT UP AND MOVING IT OUT.
AS THE KIDS GREW OLDER AND I GOT WILDER, THANK GOD MY PARENTS STEPPED IN AND SAID ENOUGH WAS ENOUGH. DETAILS ARE NOT IMPORTANT, THATS NOT WHAT THIS IS ABOUT, BUT, I REALLY LOST CONTROL THEN. I RIPPED AND I RAN AND I DID EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED TO DO. I PROMISE YOU NOTHING GOOD CAME OUT OF IT. YOU MIGHT THINK I AM LYING, BUT MY RUNNING ACTUALLY LED ME BACK AND FORTH ACROSS THE MEXICAN BORDER THREE TIMES IN ONE DAY. IT LED ME TO THE NEVADA DESERT, WHERE I FINALLY STARTED TO REALIZE EXACTLY HOW ALONE I WAS.
MY RUNNING LED ME TO THE VIRGIN ISLANDS TWICE. I THOUGHT THAT SURELY THATS WHERE I NEEDED TO BE. AFTER ALL, ISNT THAT SUPPOSED TO BE PARADISE? I GOTTA ADMIT, IT WAS BEAUTIFUL, BUT ITS HIDEOUS WHEN YOU FEEL ALL ALONE.
NO MATTER WHERE I WENT, NO MATTER WHAT I DID, I STILL FELT EMPTY AND ALONE. I TRIED TO BE HAPPY. NO ONE KNEW WHAT WENT ON BEHIND MY SMILING FACE. I HATED MY LIFE. I FELT USELESS. I FELT LIKE A WASTE TO MY FAMILY. I COULDNT RUN FAR ENOUGH. I COULD NOT HIDE.
I CANNOT FIND WORDS TO TELL YOU HOW IT FELT TO FINALLY COME HOME. NOTHING THAT I HAVE SEEN ANYWHERE SEEMS AS BEAUTIFUL TO ME AS THIS PLACE. I FINALLY DECIDED TO STOP RUNNING. I REALIZED THAT I TAKE ME WITH ME NO MATTER WHERE I GO. I AM COMPLETELY SATISFIED TO SIT HERE AT HOME AND ENJOY THE LOVE OF MY FAMILY AND THE PEACE OF MY LIFE.
I ESPECIALLY TREASURE THE LOVE OF THE LORD. I AM SO GRATEFUL THAT HE WAITED PATIENTLY FOR ME TO REALIZE THAT HE WAS WHAT WAS MISSING IN MY LIFE. THROUGH IT ALL, HE WAS THERE. I SEE THAT NOW. I WAS NEVER ALONE. WORDS CANNOT TELL YOU HOW GRATEFUL I AM TODAY FOR HIS FORGIVENESS, HIS GRACE, HIS MERCY AND HIS LOVE.
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