Thursday, April 14, 2011

THROWN ASIDE

HAVE YOU EVER JUST THROWN SOMEONE TO THE SIDE? 
HAVE YOU EVER NOT CARED ABOUT WHOSE FEELINGS YOU MIGHT BE HURTING?
HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT ABOUT HOW MANY PEOPLE YOUR ACTIONS MIGHT EFFECT?

I AM GUILTY OF ALL THREE.  THROUGHOUT MY LIFE, I HAVE FOUND IT TOO EASY JUST TO CAST PEOPLE ASIDE, REGARDLESS OF WHO IT MIGHT BE.  I HAVE HURT ALOT OF PEOPLES FEELINGS AND WAS ALWAYS ABLE TO JUSTIFY MY ACTIONS. I DIDNT DO THIS TO STRANGERS OR CASUAL ACQUAINTANCES, I DID THIS TO PEOPLE WHO CARED ABOUT ME.  I ALWAYS FOUND A REASON TO GET MAD AND START A FIGHT.  IT WAS EASY TO VERBALLY ATTACK PEOPLE WITH MY WORDS.  THROUGHOUT THE YEARS, IT BECAME EASIER AND EASIER FOR ME TO THROW PEOPLE AWAY. 

I SIT HERE TODAY AND FEEL ASHAMED OF MYSELF FOR SOME OF THE THINGS I HAVE SAID OR DONE.  I REALIZE THAT I CANNOT TAKE ANY OF THOSE HURTFUL THINGS AWAY.  I KNOW THAT WORDS STICK WITH PEOPLE LONG AFTER THE CONVERSATION ENDS.  ALL I CAN DO IS APOLOGIZE WITH AN HONEST HEART.  ALL I CAN DO IS ASK FOR FORGIVENESS.  I REALIZE TODAY THAT NOT ONLY DID I CAST PEOPLE AROUND ME TO THE SIDE, I CAST GOD TO THE SIDE AS WELL.  I REJECTED HIS LOVE AND FRIENDSHIP CONTINUOUSLY.

I AM SO GRATEFUL THAT GOD NEVER TURNED HIS BACK ON ME.  NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I REJECTED AND TURNED AWAY FROM HIM, HE STILL WAS THERE, WITH OPEN ARMS , WAITING FOR ME TO REALIZE JUST THAT.  I AM THANKFUL TODAY THAT GOD HAS PUT TENDERNESS, LOVE AND KINDNESS IN MY HEART.  I NEEDED IT SO BADLY.  LIKE I SAID, I CANNOT TAKE AWAY THE PAIN I HAVE CAUSED OTHERS, BUT I SURE CAN SHARE HAPPINESS AND JOY WITH THEM TODAY.  GOD HAS SHOWN ME THAT I AM CAPABLE OF LOVING OTHERS.  HIS DEATH ON THE CROSS TELLS ME ALL I NEED TO KNOW ABOUT CARING FOR OTHERS RATHER THAN MYSELF. 

I CANNOT CHANGE ANY OF THE THINGS I DID TO OTHERS IN THE PAST, BUT I SURE CAN ASK FOR FORGIVENESS.  IF I HAVE HURT ANYONE READING THIS "NOTE" BY ANY OF MY ACTIONS IN THE PAST, I AM ASKING YOU TO FORGIVE ME NOW.  THE LORD HAS DONE SO MUCH FOR ME.  HIS FORGIVENESS, HIS GRACE, HIS MERCY AND HIS LOVE ARE VISIBLE IN EVERY AREA OF MY LIFE.  HE RESTORED MY ABILITY TO LOVE AND CARE ABOUT OTHERS. 
HE WOULD LOVE TO DO THE SAME THING FOR YOU.  IF HE DID IT FOR ME, HE CAN AND HE WILL SURELY DO IT FOR YOU!

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